Good people go to heaven. I probably don't belong there.

Hello again. To whoever who reads.

I'm feeling shitty. I'm sick of being a good person. It doesn't pay to treat people good, or to be nice to people or to lend someone a helping hand. After you lend them a helping hand to tide their crisis, they just forget who you are. Well Balls to you. Nobody needs friends like that.

FUCK. BALLS TO ALL OF YOU.

The good guys only get stepped upon. They never win.


Exams are next week. I'm losing my As. what the fuck. now its all Bs and Cs. Even the couple of losers in my class are doing better than me. HELL I'm not gonna end up the ultimate loser. I REFUSE.

Nanda if u still read my blog and if u read this - I need coffee. You're probably the only person i can talk to.

So you sailed away...........

Ah, hello again.

apparently 23 ppl have visited my blog. or are there only 3? hahaha. No matter.

IVP was disaster. I'm not very happy with the results. Well, ok lah, considering we started training later than most institutes. And I HATE players who don't take their coaches advice. There was one bout where I just felt like standing up and walking away. Anyway, on a brighter note, congrats to Pei Jing and Dennis, keep up the training, and to all those who got silver, I know you ppl fought your guts out but silver's not good enough. Train harder. HAHA. Well.... half of you did well. The earlier comments apply to the other half.

I'm not complaining about this year's windbreaker design though. Probably the nicest so far since i joined the club.

Everyone's looking forward to me participating in next year's IVP but I'm quitting TKD once school starts. If I really have to take up a cca, it'll probably be guitar club.

Term will start on April 17th. HAHAHA. Veenoth will be starting term with me!! I can't wait to see how big his tummy's gotten.HAHAHAHEHEHEHEHOHOHO

I've been trying to complete the data entry job. Its just about done. NAnda, thanks for your help.

Went cycling with Nanda finally!! haha.though it was just the 2 of us. Gilbert got grounded by his significant other. HAHAHA. We went to balestier for supper and back.

Went to the tree top trails at Macritchie with couple of the youths and PS Gideon. Very interesting. It was nice because i don't go to Macritchie's very often. The terrain looked good for biking.

To the gym with Victor and Willy yesterday. Arms are aching.hurrhurr.

Been watching a bit of TV recently. the 9 o' clock drama on ch 8? yah, the one with the blind girl. She's quite pretty. But the way she talks, a bit funny... haha. the other one's a korean drama on ch U at 10 pm. i don't know the title. can't remember. last night the girl's mom got shot by an arrow and she died. so sad. my mom cried. And the girl just kept trying to stuff wild berries into her mouth. Sigh... all these wouldn't have happened if you didn't spill your mouth off and tell everyone that your dad was a military officer.

Youth fellowship and service this sunday. Oh, and there's dinner at Marina Steamboat for IVP players and coaches. No good cause for celebration given the poor showing, but since there's dinner, and I'm invited, I won't complain.

Off to training now. Bye bye

An angel's smile is what you sell...

Alright. updates. Lets start with 4th march, sat. Went for fellowship. Played ball games. dodgeball, tabletennis (with 2 tables)and captain's ball. Fun :>

Service on Sunday. Pastor Gideon had lunch with the youths after that. Things are starting to look up for the youth.

On monday, I took a day off from work and hung around with Victor. He wanted to get the Creative Zen mp3 player, but apparently it has discontinued production. We walked the whole of Sim Lim looking for it. Willy met us later and he drove us to KFC at kallang where we just sat down to catch up over some drinks and cheese fries. Learnt a few things about managing our finances. We chit chatted for like 3 hours before heading down to brewerkz for dinner. Dinner was GOOD!!! I tried the fish and chips, Victor had the clams linguine and Willy had the BBQ chicken leg with 1/2 rack of ribs. Washed it down with some blackberry flavoured beer, and I had a slice of fudge cake for desert. Super sinful. Willy tried the beer tasters. 8 kinds of beer served in 12 oz glasses. nice.

Went to Willy's friend's place to play CashFlow. CashFlow's a board game. I learnt alot from it. Its just like monopoly where u buy and invest in property and stocks, but its more interesting. Everyone starts off in a circle called the rat race. The primary objective was to get out of the rat race by increasing your cashflow until it was greater than your total expenses. Once out of the rat race, life becomes simpler and the secondary objective is to achieve your 'dream'. Too complicated to explain.

The game is very similar in real life - in the rat race, you have debts and liabilities to pay, but at the same time, opportunities are abound: buy a condo or duplex/four plex and lease it out, or sell it at a higher value; invest in stocks and choose the right time to sell; buy and own companies. once your cashflow becomes greater than your liabilities and money is no longer that big an issue, get out of the ratrace and focus on doubling / tripling/ quadripling your money. Basically getting money to work for you.

Easier said than done in real life of course. But I did learn alot about managing finances.

Tues. Met Willy and Victor again in the morning. Went trail running on the mountain biking trail in bukit timah. A nice change from always running on roads. But I had to fall down and graze my knee :< Lunch after that, went home to rest, and off to changyuan's place to fix his bike.

I couldn't do much with his bike. In the end we took it to the nearby bike shop and had dinner. Didn't know changyuan was into photographing as well. He takes nice pictures. Some are pretty artsy in fact.

Oh, and brilliant sound system ;>

Today is wed. I went with my mom to market in the morning. Went to the library (back to work) after lunch. went with Rabbit to ITE simei college East after that. Rabbit's applying for WISE programme. Nice campus. Facilities were on par if not better than most polytechnics. Went back to paya lebar after that, ate KFC for dinner.

I'm doing gym with victor and willy tomorrow. Never really did weights... find it too monotonous. Its Victor's turn to bitch me around tomorrow. I can start to imagine... .... 'Lift bitch, lift!!! Its only 25 KG!!!' HAHAHAHA.... MAN...

I wanna go sleep. tahtah

Familiarity breeds contempt... absence makes the heart grow fonder??

There are some feelings which you keep hidden. Even from yourself. You just refuse to ackonwledge their existence.

My brother has been gone 2 days. The house is quiet. Too quiet. This goes to show that he brings about all the life in the household. Whether he's making senseless noise, or getting into a heated arguement with me.

I'm missing him already. AWWWWW....

We do have our arguements sometimes... well, ok. all the time. He takes my clothes. Wears my footwear. Dominates the computer. Makes me want to tear my hair out. and his after that.

But he's still my brother. and I guess there's no other way to say it, but I love him.

Well as long as he doesn't know its ok i guess. The chances of him visiting are what... zero to none? lol

Nothing much happened today. Days are routine and uneventful. Aiyah, don't even know why I'm complaining.

Nanda was supposed to call me to run today. Guess he forgot. Its alright. No hard feelings. You guys have yet to come to woodlands to run with me.

There's been alot of buzz on the Tammy video. Private and intimate moments should never be filmed on any media. Especially your handphone-its the easiest to lose. And like this case where some malicious person gets hold of it, rest assured you'll be catapulted to instant stardom.

And look, they've made VCDs for sale across the causeway too. More than just a few wanks huh...

Tentative plans to go night cycling with Nanda this Fri. I just hope they materialise. I need a good ride (no pun intended).

Buhbyee

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On my way to service this morning, I overslept past my station and landed up in marina Bay. Luckily I made it in time for service.

Nothing out of the ordinary happened today. Stayed back for youth music team meeting. Reached home at 6.

Youth fellowship yesterday. Friends factor workshop. Another workshop about making, keeping and positively influencing your friends. Played guitar for fellowship. haha. Ethel and kenny's playing next week.

Its a little sad and frustrating what little progress I'm making on the guitar.

Had bible study after fellowship, and down to clarissa's house for her birthday party after that. Special mention: Clarissa turns 15 this tues. Happy birthday(even though you might not read this).

She had her classmates over. Lively bunch of girls. quite unlike me i guess( but of course they're girls) I feel dead. Maybe its the realisation of the responsiblities abound, and that I am no longer young?



My brother just left for Thailand for his mission trip. Heard they're building an orphange there or something. I'm not entirely sure but May the Lord guide and watch over them.

I feel sad. I punched my brother in the eye yesterday. I needed to use the com urgently to send an email but he wouldn't let me use it. A struggle ensued. He shoved me and i gave him one to his right eye.

It wasn't a hard one, i just touched him. Enough to cause a little pain, but not enough to bruise or bump or make him bleed. He was a little shocked. It must have worked, for he just moved aside and let me use the computer.

I can have patience for just about anyone. But just not him. Sigh. His attitude is getting from bad to worse. Even the way he talks to my mom is atrocious. My mom has given up on him, believing that the world will teach him his lesson. And I have tried all ways and means to talk to him. Except violence of course. We shouldn't have to resort to violence and brute force in order to get things done.

God help us all.

Did the captain of the titanic cry?

Oh well. Life has been boring. Been doing the data entry job i took over from Sam. Its very routine. I work on the 11th floor of the national library in town. Nice view :> Baiscally I search for the required microfilm(s) then I use the reader to look at the film, and search for the required info which I then input into excel. And I stay at the library for close to 9 hours a stretch.

There was a fire drill in the library yesterday, and the whole library, yes 13 storeys all had to evacuate to ground floor. Spent like a good hour doing nothing.

Been meeting up with Victor regularly. His exam period is like now, so he goes there to study. We have dinner after that.

Caught JARHEAD with Victor on monday. Outstanding war flick. Welcome to the Suck.

Transport is killing. I top up my ezlink card like twice a week. This is bad.

Met up with Ben and Victor recently. We went to Al ameen's for prata and milo godzilla at 3 in the morning. They were putting up some posters advertising milo godzilla and milo dinosaur. Their idea of a dinosaur was a T-Rex. And their idea of godzilla was... well, godzilla. Spitting fire at warplanes kinda thing.

Anyways. We realized that they superimposed the wrong drinks on to the wrong creature. Milo Dinosaur was on Godzilla, while Milo Godzilla was on T-rex. We all had a good laugh.

Was supposed to run today with Victor, but that buggar slept and lost track of time. and when he woke up he didn't feel like running, so he just popped by for dinner.

I'm itching to do bukit timah hill again or go night cycling. Haven't done that in awhile. NANDA I'm still waiting.

Been sleeping pretty late recently. I wish I had SCV. TV and me used to be best friends until I got a life. And it seems the life has left me.... And so have the good programmes on TV. While typing this I'm waiting for American Dad and Father of the Pride to start. I caught a rerun of Whose Line is IT anyway at 2 am last night. Sad.

Ah. back to the monotonous routine of life. For one thing, I'm not like the others whose time has passed. Nanda for example. 'So, whats new in SPT?' Man, you're too current. Whatever for? I just feel that the time has come for me to abandon that chapter of my life behind.

When you're in the army you can't wait to ORD. After I Ord I can't wait to start school. And I guess when the workload hits I can't wait for the breaks to start. And when you're in school you'll look forward to the passing of each year until your graduation. And after that it'll be getting a job and rolling in the moolah.Later part's probably a little too farfetched for now, but hey. Thats looking forward. A good thing I guess.

Tkd tomorrow. I've agreed to help them for IVP as an assistant coach. I'm giving up on tkd after that, high time I did. Oh and Vincent owes me 20 bucks.

Sad. I switch on my TV and see some lady strutting around in a two piece bathing suit. I flip open the newspaper to the TV listings and realise that some 'reality'- genre-sounding tv show called THE SWAN has replaced my cartoons. Nothing left to look forward to anymore. I'm going to sleep.

Post ORD

Thursday the 16th was ORD day. And it was overated. Nope, no running around half naked punching the air doing cartwheels and backflips on the corridor sort of thing. None of that.

Went back to camp with Nanda at 2pm. Went to office to get my IC. Had to wait a whole hour to clear my camp pass because the bald eagle(RSM's nickname for obvious reasons)was in a meeting.

Everyone (or rather the small handful of instructors left in office) was like 'WAH ORD already... so good' Ms Tan was like 'Arvind I'm going to miss you be a good boy study hard' and Mr Ong was like 'I'm not going to sign your clearance form. You're my slave for life!!!'

Oh and I got a really nice pen from them. with my name on it. cool.

Went home, was feeling bored, so gave my mom a movie treat. Watched Cassanova. Nice movie!! witty dialogue.

Pigged out on Prata for supper.

Work on friday. Went to NYP for tkd after that.IVP selection was going on. I decided to go down and have some fun. I busted both my kneecaps. Old age...

Youth Fellowship today. Played guitar for fellowship today alongside kenny although I wasn't scheduled to. Niujin and I organized ball games.. well ok fine, Niujin organized ball games. Well shirley and everyone else gave suggestions via email lah. but Niu and I were supposed to be the organizers. She did all the planning and I kinda did the execution part. The games went well but the weather could have been better.

Had bible study after that. Jaime conducted the session.

Charis youth will survive and flourish by the grace of God.


Ah. Will have to skip service again tomorrow. Doing a one-off event at NSRCC with Chris. I have to get my priorities right.

Sent in my DAE application to RP. Diploma in Sports science and Diploma in sports and leisure mgt. Rp is near my house. I'm kinda hoping they take me. I have yet to fix an interview with NYP. Will get down to it soon..

Post ORD syndrome? I can't say that I'm not happy to hold my pink IC again, but life hasn't changed much. It probably just got more difficult. For starters I no longer have bus concession!!! MAn. travelling is already a chore. Well, thats the main peeve. I guess civillians have alot to worry about.

Till the next post.